Alise's Phobia

终于，今天让我知道了事实的真相。真相让我不知所措，脑袋一片空白，不知该怎么办？我感到很失望，你为什么要骗我，瞒住我，不告诉我呢？真的有那么难开口吗？我不知道你怎么了。原来你跟其他男人没分别，一样会说谎，会瞒住一些事，亏你还说什么事都会告诉我。什么都是骗人的。男人难道就不能实话实说，不骗女人吗？？

上帝创造男人不是为了要伤害女人的，而是为了保护女人。

所有的男人给我听好，当你们伤害女人的时候，有想过女人的感受吗？你可知道那是有多痛苦的吗？你们可能不知道我们女人被伤害时的痛苦。

自从那次事件过后，我对男人失去所有信心。一旦那男人欺骗过我一次，就休想要我再相信他。男人有第一次，就会有第二次。原谅他一次，就会犯第二次。

男人都爱拥有两个女人，一个是女友，一个是‘好朋友’。其实你们同时伤害了两个女人，你们到底知道吗？

在两年前的伤就快要复原的时候，又被伤了一次，伤再加伤，很痛很痛。我是不是永远都怎么倒霉？？被男人一伤再伤。对男人已经成为一种恐惧。很怕很怕，很怕再次受到男人的欺骗。我已经再也不能承受这种伤害了，我该怎么办？？？

我已经不知道该说什么了，眼泪狂流，不停的流。

每次写部落都流泪，很累了，让我静一静。。。。。。。。。。。。

同样的事情又发生了

同样的事情又发生了

今天听到了一个坏消息。对我来说，这是第二次打击。这已经不是第一次了，而且这次伤得比上次重很多。很痛很痛。。。不只我的眼泪在流，我的心也在流泪，我的心被被刺了第二次。。前两年是这样，两年后又是一样。我为什么要让同样的事发生在我身上？？我为什么怎么笨？

两年前，有个好朋友告诉我，他喜欢我。可是，只能当好朋友。因为他比较喜欢另一个。可是他说我还可以当他的好朋友，每天信息，当他的开心果。因为他在我身上得到不同的感觉。我算是什么？代替品？开心果？玩具？不开心就找我？我也是人，有感情的。有女友之前，我们就像男女友一样，没分别。可是我知道，他喜欢的还是另一个。是我太天真了，想太多。我们一直都很开心。直到两年前的圣诞节，他告诉我他得到她了。我整个人崩溃了。那是我过过最难过的圣诞节，也很难忘。自从那次，我们连朋友都没得做，我恨死他，很恨，很恨。也自从这件事过后，我恨死天下所有的男人。男人的话，我一句都不信。什么都是骗人的。每一句是真的。男人都是会骗女人的动物，每一个好东西。自从那次过后，我整个人就变了另一人。不再是以前那个心软的Alice了。

两年后的现在，同样的事又发生了。我又只能当人家的好朋友。我到底是怎么了？我又被耍了。这次伤得比上次严重，很痛很痛。又有一个朋友让我受伤了。我感到很无助，伤心，不知该怎么办。男人都是怎么随便说出‘我要你’这三个字吗？还是你们可以同时追很多个女生，让后谁接受先就谁了？？男人都是犯贱！！！！！如果你没有想要那个女生当你女友，请不要轻易的说出‘我要你’这三个字好吗？如果你说出了，就不要那一天，你告诉那个女生说你有女友了。这样会让那个女的很受伤。她会觉得你在玩弄她，欺骗她。可能一切都是我自己想太多。我应该学会聪明点。

还有那些有女友的男人，请你们不要太贪心，有了女友就不要去外面搞三搞四，不要去外面惹别的女子。这样不只会伤到你们的女友，还会伤到你们在外面惹的女子。你女友会心痛，而外面那女子会被骂‘狐狸精’，‘第三者’，还有的是你会让他产生错觉以为你喜欢她。如果那女的对你动了心，你就死！！！

这次，真的让我对男人彻彻底底的失望，失去信心了。不会再有第三次。绝对不会。天下所有的男人都是犯贱！！！！！自私！！！！！贪心！！！！！每一个好东西！！！！！

警告所有的男人：女生都有一种敏感，如果你不喜欢人家还对人家特别好，这样很容易让女生产生错觉而受伤的。

89 VS. 90

89 VS. 90

People say ‘Love Is Blind’, is that true?? Yap, it’s true. Definitely true. When people ask you, ‘Why you love him or her??’ can u answer??? May be you will say cause he is handsome, cause he is rich, cause he is kind or cause she is sexy, she is cute, she is pretty, she is rich. All these reasons are not call love. Love is without reason. But I know it won’t happen in this reality world. All guys and girls like pretty girl and handsome guy, no exception. Why like this?? No reason lolz… world is like this..no reason…anything also no reason..

Can 89 and 90 match?? Hmmm…still thinking..hard or easy?? Complicated! People say girls got a lot of admirer is a good things, izit true?? For me, it got good got bad lo. Guys always like to chase the pretty, cute, and sexy girl. Then how bout the girls who are not pretty, not cute, not sexy one?? Rugi then..no guy chase them..that why I always say, guys really miang, hamsap. When c a girl which is pretty and sexy, then will immediately feel want to know her and get her. Am I right, guys?? Guys will only looking at sexy girls.

Nowadays, couples really no need care about ages. When u really loves someone, ages are really not a problem. If both of you love each other, just go ahead. No need care about what other people say. But for me, can I do it? Can I accept it? Say truly, I do mind it. But my best friend told me that, it actually not a problem, is depend on how u look at it only. Especially, when there is only 1 or 2 years different, it is not a big problem. But for me…..er….duno…^^

Nowadays, I know many of 90’s friends. Sometimes feels that they are really cute. But sometimes will feels that they are childish, less knowledge. Anyway, I know that no one is perfect, can’t blame them. Some more, they still stay at their home, and hide behind parents. Hmmm..jealous also..hehe..But some 90’s guys are quite matured already. May be sometimes is I think too much, too high demand?? People always say me like this. Haiz..may be lol..

Not only 90’s friend lol, got 91 and 92 tim…hahahaha..damn funny one.. I really cannot believe. Is it proving that I still look like 17, 18, and 19 years old? Should I feel happy?? Hahaha…just feel funny.

Of cz I hope that I can always be 18 years old, but is it possible?? Of cz no, crazy meh…

Anyway, people say, ages are not a problem. We no need care about ages. People also said that ‘人老心不老’. Hahahaha…

By : Alise^^

My Best Diary - Tiring Day^^

Finally finish all my mid term test, very tired today. Last night whole night didn’t sleep, didn’t eat since dinner last night, damn tired la..worst headache again, heart beat very fast, bad mood, lazy, don feel like talking,.need stay alone in the room again now..don feel like face other people..all ‘tired symptom’ come out already...haiz..a tiring life.

Now is the end of Week 5, still left 2 weeks then is study week. After study week, there is exam week. OH NO!!! Suffering time is coming, I going to become an owl again. During exam week, there is no life no happy hour, no everything..OMG.. It make me headache when think of it. While exam week, there is only few things can do which is study, eat, and sleep.

OH NO!!! my life suck a…..???? Speechless!!!

Well, after exam week of cause is sem break loo…my happy hour coming soon. I hope exam can end earlier then I can have my happy hour earlier. Yuhoo…can shopping shopping and shopping loo… Christmas coming also…New Year coming also…hahaha… I think i am crazy…

This time sem break will be start on 28/12/09 until 17/01/10. I hope it will be a nice break, won’t be a boring and empty break. I wish it to be memorable, enjoyable, full of happiness, and ……aiya, hope all happy things will happen on me..yuhoo..waiting for this sem break…kakakaka

Sadly, my birthday is coming again lol…become older again lol…haiz… Alice big liao loo…see the Alice in the photo?? See see see…haha

It is a new year coming again, but I am still the same, still the same Alice, never change, never improve anything, just getting older and older.

Anything else I can do?? To update myself, improve myself beside study?? I need add more knowledge, update my brain, and update myself no matter in education, fashion, thinking, lifestyle, and….whatever la. I am talking nonsense again..kakaka..

Huh, damn tired..head going to explode already..make my mood damn down. Now, I am going to sleep loo…Bye..!!!