Sad :(

Finally new sem started again, last sem result like hell..i really no eyes to c my result, felt very disappointed with it, but cant do anything, only can accept and do the best again in coming sem. I hope I can handle all subject in coming sem..haiz…stress..tired..hard..complicated..hmmm….HELP!!!

Many things happened this holidays, all about family..like what I said in previous blog..i really feel sad y other ppl can live in a sweet family but me??? Cannot!!! My family have been destroyed by my brother and my sister-in-law..if all this things never happen, how good is it?? I miss my sweet family last time…:’( I really miss my family when I was study outside, but when I go back home, the feeling is different…my home is full of Evil..i even cannot stay in the house 1minute..it makes me cannot breathe, I really cannot stand anymore..y this world got this such of ppl..i realy don understand…how can they treat their parents like this??? How can he treat his own sister like this?? The only one eldest sister he has..why?? Parents always will treat their children equally, y should u say parents not sayang u?? even though I know dad love son more than daughter, I din mention anything..i never say dad pilih kasih also?? Everyone also know dad love u more but urself duno..pls la..u not a kid already..use ur brain to think, Idiot!!!!

Last few days my uncle passed away. This year I had lost 1 aunty and 1 uncle..it make me very very sad..i really felt unbelievable, t felt don wan to accept this fact.. I DON WAN!!! The morning when I wanna depart from my hometown to Bintulu, I heard the news, I really cannot believe that it is true…I told myself that was not true..the news was not true..i wan my uncle to alive.. I miss him…although we seldom meet, seldom talk..but I really miss him..:’( :’( he is a good and nice uncle..i don wan he to leave…I don wan, really don wan…:’( miss him… I miss the moment when he taught me driving..he really is a good driving teacher..best I ever met.. I really thanks him to teach me driving..his endless patience to teach me driving… Thanks Uncle, I will always remember u forever and ever!!!

Rest In Peace, God Bless You!!!

Angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holidays end soon..feel sad and no mood..parents haven’t come back from trip..miss them much..

Holidays too long, more things will happen. Today happened something make me damn angry, I wonder why I have such kind of brother????? I only fetch my sister to have a breakfast, should u give me face see??? Your damn angry face show on your face thought I duno?? I duno why u so angry, but if u really don like me to be ur sister then I ok wor..u already lost one elder sister, lost one more also no different lo..i ok what.. some more I got brother also like don’t have.. since I was small, I never feel that I got a brother.. for me,no different.. I think for u also no different la..since u don’t have family love..only have a wife enough.. I know dad love u more than us,but then u don’t too over..we all are dad’s children..

Why dad always stand by your side?? Why? Why? He so love u, u still don’t appreciate?? U still jealous?? Almost 30years old guy liao lo,still duno how to use ur brain to think?? What ur brain for??? Listen to wife’s word?? If like that, don’t be a guy la…kanasai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Say more also no use, if really want say, still got bad things to say…ish…DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whatever..hope can leave sadness place soon…don’t wanna come back…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Finally I came back home loo…finally finally..i had been waiting for so long time already…and finaly the suffer time pass already..

During exam really is the most suffer time for me..i never been so suffer before..but then all become past tense now..now I just start my sem break and enjoying my life although still busy everyday, it is more enjoy than exam time..^^

My holidays nothing special, sometimes still feel very boring..everyday do the same thing. One thing is different is I went for morning jog this sem break but only go for one time then need to let my dad go, I cannot go le..haiz..hope tomoro can go lol…kakaka

Yesterday was Happy Mid-Autumn Festival, I had celebrated it with my family, it was a very nice dinner with steamboat, crab, red wine and many many more…really enjoy it..hehe^^ After dinner, I still playing ‘tanglung’ with my nephew until the ‘tanglung’ was burned..haha…really fun.. I had been long time didn’t play ‘tanglung’ and did not enjoy like this looo…

This time holidays…I really hope it will never end.. I feel very very tired after the exam..and I know the exam coming will be more suffer and harder than this time..i hope I can handle it..

Support me pls…and I will support myself..i trust myself that I can..^^

This holidays feel a bit blur..duno izit bcz of exam make me bcome blur blur and abnormal..haiz...wish that I can do something that I really want..kakaka^^